Korean My Story Workshop 2/12/2022
The Holy Spirit illuminated and restored the broken pieces of my mind that remained. Through the training I was able to realize God’s love for me. God gave me great courage and taught me how to relate to people with humility and a vulnerable attitude.
I’ve heard also that God touched my mother’s heart. I was able to love my mother and experience my heart warming up for her. Through this training I deeply meditate on love and thank God for showing me I need to be filled first with His love.
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Through Summit I recognized that God still loves me and waits for me. I was feeling disconnected from God due to an incident, but I realized that distrust was making me anxious, nervous, and feeling helpless. I was deceived by the lies and brokenness in my childhood.
God’s love is bigger than the sky. It is complete and merciful and better than anything else in this world. I knew that God was still holding me, waiting, and with me in any situation with His mercy.
The biggest impression and experience of Summit was the humility and love I experienced through the leaders. So far, this has not been my experience in the Korean church. Through Summit I felt the love and humility that Jesus had given to His disciples. It was time for me to realize my heart was very prideful. It was time for me to realize that love disappeared from when I was arrogant and that God’s presence was leaving me.
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God! Father, did you already know? That I, who was born in North Korea, will pray today for an American pastor? But I didn't know, because when I was a kid, I thought I'd never see or meet any Americans in my entire life. When I was growing up in North Korea, I heard that America is a country that should disappear from the earth and that Americans are really bad people. I grew up with a lot of anger and hatred toward Americans because it was believed that North Korea was suffering because of Americans. I grew up like that, and it is possible for me to pray for an American pastor because we are children of God. I confess and thank our Father.
In particular, thank you for giving the pastor a heart for the Korean people, the only divided country in the world, and for letting him serve us with Your love. As God said in the book of Philippians, I believe God is the one who has a desire and helps the pastor have the same. Please use the pastor in this precious ministry for the good will of the Father.
May we together be of one heart and one mind in one Holy Spirit, so that we can carry out the ministry of saving and healing lives that God is pleased with.
Thank you for waking us up at dawn for a few days and restoring our souls with precious words. I look forward to the great grace that will continue to be poured out in the same way. Fill us with Your presence and would we be blessed. Pour Your holy living water into our souls.
I pray in Jesus name Amen!
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I have never seen love before in my Christian life. From the 1st day, I saw love through you serving. It makes me want to serve others.
___
I have been having a crisis in my marriage. Even up to late last night I was having a very difficult time. But God spoke through the story time today and answered me. I have decided to go back to my family.
___
The love of the Lord fills my heart through the story sharing.
There were difficult times when I was not protected by my parents in my childhood. I miscarried my first child since marriage and have responded to God’s love so far through four miscarriages. During the second miscarriage, I was so angry with God that I sarcastically prayed to him. But in a dream, I heard the praise of Jacob's blessing, and I woke up and made this confession to the Lord. It occurred to me that even the sovereignty of pain might not belong to me.
I am living in love today. While reflecting on those thoughts again during the story sharing, I received the same love. Thank you for your precious sharing!
___
During this time, I am really thankful to God. When I heard the story, I looked back at my family and myself. As a missionary, I thought that I did everything with love, but during the story it was shared that the person did not know love. I was the same. I did not know true love even toward my wife. I realized I did not know God's deep love. When they shared about compassion, I realized that I want to live a compassionate life. As I am getting older it is hard to have a compassionate heart, but I want to try.
It was good to see myself as a husband to my wife. I did not accept her truly and through the story I realized I had hurt her. I thought I had already asked for forgiveness but it was not enough. I will keep asking and try to love my wife. I will keep walking with a compassionate heart toward her. I will wait for her more. I am thankful that my wife is still with me.
___
I got sick 15 years ago and did not completely heal. I wondered why God did not heal me completely. I wondered if it was because of my sin. But today I realized that was a lie from the enemy. I thought God would listen to my prayer for healing but I realized that God wants to make me satisfied with things that are not necessarily my wish. Even though I’m still sick, I have peace and joy in God! God satisfies me!
___
I ask myself how it was that I did not know about God. Through this time, I could start to understand God. I think this is for me. I could also see myself during this time. I have anger in me that makes me hard. It makes relationships difficult. I realize now what love is and I want to give love to others.
___
God told me that he has done a lot for me. Sometimes I believed him with my mouth, but my life was not in alignment. I always tried to avoid him because I felt like I was weak. God told me that I can do it with him. God keeps telling me he will renew me. It helps me obey him in whatever he says to me. I can do it in him! I can't stop crying because of his mercy toward me.
___
I’ve been a Christian for 45 years. I knew that Jesus saved me, but today I remembered that day and how God brought me hope. Through God’s word, my shame has been taken away.
___
God spoke to me that even if I have a lot of sin, he still wants me to praise him. I see myself bound by sin, but God told me that he will keep his promises. God told me he will put his words in me so that I will be new. I give praise to him.
God has done great things to me and I can’t stop praising him!!! I will praise him all day long and will meditate more on what it means to praise him.
___
Since the first day God has been speaking to me that he is love. Again, today he told me that he is love and it set me free. It is so real to me. I realized that I did not have love, but God’s great love has saved me! It gives me such hope and freedom!
___
He showed me that he redeemed our life from the dead and satisfies our wishes with good things. I thought I believed in his goodness and power, but am I really believing in the word that renews our youth like an eagle? When I truly believe in renewal, I will have youth like an eagle. It seems that God is telling me to believe.
___
God became my friend and father because of his kindness. He gave me breath today as well, and I am receiving God's mercy and love through the training.
There is a passage from Exodus that I like. I want to be face to face with our Heavenly Father and his friends and never leave his presence. I want to abide in the love of the Lord. This is my earnest expectation and hope.
___
I have not believed in God until today. I know now that God is God and love is only from him!
___
This experience is totally different from books or schools. It is God’s living heart and words. It is such a precious time that I have never experienced before. Thank you!
___
I have experienced a release of God’s spirit like I have never experienced before.
___
I had been wondering about my faith and why things were so hard. Through this training I have experienced so much love and compassion.
___
While reading Psalm 103 today, I meditated on verse 13 for a long time, “as a father has mercy on his children.” Father, child, and mercy! These three words stayed in my mind. My physical father, and my children! My Heavenly Father, the father of my soul. I am that father's child!
Growing up in North Korea, where the patriarchy is severe, a father is not an easy person, like a friend, but a difficult person all the time.
When I gave birth to my children and raised them, I could not understand parents who do not show compassion to their children. My father must have been merciful to me, but he did not express it, or I don't think I felt it.
Now that I am a parent, I wonder why I have compassion for my children? When I meditated on that thought, I realized it was because my children were weaker than me. Mothers know the fragility of children best.
I wondered if our Heavenly Father was like that. Thank you for showing me verse 14. God knows my weakness so well that He has compassion and waits for me with his love. This is because he knows our weakness.
My soul can't help but praise God when I think that I have always received that mercy. I will experience mercy it in the future, and I am sitting here today with that same mercy.
My soul blesses God! Amen!!!
___
When we shared about forgiveness, the one thing that was in my heart was my relationship with my husband. His weakness makes me angry every day. But today I realized I did not truly show love to him, even though he showed love to me. I will try and walk toward God. His words set me free. All glory to him!
___
When you prayed for us to feel joy, I wanted revenge on someone who hurt me. God told me to wait 3 years ago, so I waited. After 3 years I had the chance to take revenge but God told me that I really didn’t want that. So, I prayed today and asked God to help me forgive and God listened to my prayer when I gave up my right to take revenge. I felt such joy when I surrendered my right! Now I think about who I need to ask forgiveness because I think restoration can happen. I am so thankful! It is my joy!
___
I want to thank you for teaching truth. Even as pastors, we missed this.
___
Our enemy is at work in all the world. I felt like God forgot about me and it was hard to be satisfied in life. I wondered if I could really make it in life. I was always questioning myself and wanted to give up. There was a moment I wanted to jump from my apartment roof, but God was there. I give all the glory to him.
___
I thought my hardships were God's plan, but I found out that it was not true. I've been living in the midst of brokenness, thinking there was no problem, but I also found that was false. I realized that the enemy had lied to me, and I realized how many lies I had believed. If I don't truly believe in the truths that God tells me through love and patience, I get in the way of the Lord leading me to recovery.
I felt the Holy Spirit working among us. I got to know His love again. I found out that God works in an unexpected way, and He led us throughout our whole time.
I’ve been a Christian a long time but I realized today that I didn’t believe God was alive. I think today is the first time I realized God is alive.
I’ve heard also that God touched my mother’s heart. I was able to love my mother and experience my heart warming up for her. Through this training I deeply meditate on love and thank God for showing me I need to be filled first with His love.
___
Through Summit I recognized that God still loves me and waits for me. I was feeling disconnected from God due to an incident, but I realized that distrust was making me anxious, nervous, and feeling helpless. I was deceived by the lies and brokenness in my childhood.
God’s love is bigger than the sky. It is complete and merciful and better than anything else in this world. I knew that God was still holding me, waiting, and with me in any situation with His mercy.
The biggest impression and experience of Summit was the humility and love I experienced through the leaders. So far, this has not been my experience in the Korean church. Through Summit I felt the love and humility that Jesus had given to His disciples. It was time for me to realize my heart was very prideful. It was time for me to realize that love disappeared from when I was arrogant and that God’s presence was leaving me.
___
God! Father, did you already know? That I, who was born in North Korea, will pray today for an American pastor? But I didn't know, because when I was a kid, I thought I'd never see or meet any Americans in my entire life. When I was growing up in North Korea, I heard that America is a country that should disappear from the earth and that Americans are really bad people. I grew up with a lot of anger and hatred toward Americans because it was believed that North Korea was suffering because of Americans. I grew up like that, and it is possible for me to pray for an American pastor because we are children of God. I confess and thank our Father.
In particular, thank you for giving the pastor a heart for the Korean people, the only divided country in the world, and for letting him serve us with Your love. As God said in the book of Philippians, I believe God is the one who has a desire and helps the pastor have the same. Please use the pastor in this precious ministry for the good will of the Father.
May we together be of one heart and one mind in one Holy Spirit, so that we can carry out the ministry of saving and healing lives that God is pleased with.
Thank you for waking us up at dawn for a few days and restoring our souls with precious words. I look forward to the great grace that will continue to be poured out in the same way. Fill us with Your presence and would we be blessed. Pour Your holy living water into our souls.
I pray in Jesus name Amen!
___
I have never seen love before in my Christian life. From the 1st day, I saw love through you serving. It makes me want to serve others.
___
I have been having a crisis in my marriage. Even up to late last night I was having a very difficult time. But God spoke through the story time today and answered me. I have decided to go back to my family.
___
The love of the Lord fills my heart through the story sharing.
There were difficult times when I was not protected by my parents in my childhood. I miscarried my first child since marriage and have responded to God’s love so far through four miscarriages. During the second miscarriage, I was so angry with God that I sarcastically prayed to him. But in a dream, I heard the praise of Jacob's blessing, and I woke up and made this confession to the Lord. It occurred to me that even the sovereignty of pain might not belong to me.
I am living in love today. While reflecting on those thoughts again during the story sharing, I received the same love. Thank you for your precious sharing!
___
During this time, I am really thankful to God. When I heard the story, I looked back at my family and myself. As a missionary, I thought that I did everything with love, but during the story it was shared that the person did not know love. I was the same. I did not know true love even toward my wife. I realized I did not know God's deep love. When they shared about compassion, I realized that I want to live a compassionate life. As I am getting older it is hard to have a compassionate heart, but I want to try.
It was good to see myself as a husband to my wife. I did not accept her truly and through the story I realized I had hurt her. I thought I had already asked for forgiveness but it was not enough. I will keep asking and try to love my wife. I will keep walking with a compassionate heart toward her. I will wait for her more. I am thankful that my wife is still with me.
___
I got sick 15 years ago and did not completely heal. I wondered why God did not heal me completely. I wondered if it was because of my sin. But today I realized that was a lie from the enemy. I thought God would listen to my prayer for healing but I realized that God wants to make me satisfied with things that are not necessarily my wish. Even though I’m still sick, I have peace and joy in God! God satisfies me!
___
I ask myself how it was that I did not know about God. Through this time, I could start to understand God. I think this is for me. I could also see myself during this time. I have anger in me that makes me hard. It makes relationships difficult. I realize now what love is and I want to give love to others.
___
God told me that he has done a lot for me. Sometimes I believed him with my mouth, but my life was not in alignment. I always tried to avoid him because I felt like I was weak. God told me that I can do it with him. God keeps telling me he will renew me. It helps me obey him in whatever he says to me. I can do it in him! I can't stop crying because of his mercy toward me.
___
I’ve been a Christian for 45 years. I knew that Jesus saved me, but today I remembered that day and how God brought me hope. Through God’s word, my shame has been taken away.
___
God spoke to me that even if I have a lot of sin, he still wants me to praise him. I see myself bound by sin, but God told me that he will keep his promises. God told me he will put his words in me so that I will be new. I give praise to him.
God has done great things to me and I can’t stop praising him!!! I will praise him all day long and will meditate more on what it means to praise him.
___
Since the first day God has been speaking to me that he is love. Again, today he told me that he is love and it set me free. It is so real to me. I realized that I did not have love, but God’s great love has saved me! It gives me such hope and freedom!
___
He showed me that he redeemed our life from the dead and satisfies our wishes with good things. I thought I believed in his goodness and power, but am I really believing in the word that renews our youth like an eagle? When I truly believe in renewal, I will have youth like an eagle. It seems that God is telling me to believe.
___
God became my friend and father because of his kindness. He gave me breath today as well, and I am receiving God's mercy and love through the training.
There is a passage from Exodus that I like. I want to be face to face with our Heavenly Father and his friends and never leave his presence. I want to abide in the love of the Lord. This is my earnest expectation and hope.
___
I have not believed in God until today. I know now that God is God and love is only from him!
___
This experience is totally different from books or schools. It is God’s living heart and words. It is such a precious time that I have never experienced before. Thank you!
___
I have experienced a release of God’s spirit like I have never experienced before.
___
I had been wondering about my faith and why things were so hard. Through this training I have experienced so much love and compassion.
___
While reading Psalm 103 today, I meditated on verse 13 for a long time, “as a father has mercy on his children.” Father, child, and mercy! These three words stayed in my mind. My physical father, and my children! My Heavenly Father, the father of my soul. I am that father's child!
Growing up in North Korea, where the patriarchy is severe, a father is not an easy person, like a friend, but a difficult person all the time.
When I gave birth to my children and raised them, I could not understand parents who do not show compassion to their children. My father must have been merciful to me, but he did not express it, or I don't think I felt it.
Now that I am a parent, I wonder why I have compassion for my children? When I meditated on that thought, I realized it was because my children were weaker than me. Mothers know the fragility of children best.
I wondered if our Heavenly Father was like that. Thank you for showing me verse 14. God knows my weakness so well that He has compassion and waits for me with his love. This is because he knows our weakness.
My soul can't help but praise God when I think that I have always received that mercy. I will experience mercy it in the future, and I am sitting here today with that same mercy.
My soul blesses God! Amen!!!
___
When we shared about forgiveness, the one thing that was in my heart was my relationship with my husband. His weakness makes me angry every day. But today I realized I did not truly show love to him, even though he showed love to me. I will try and walk toward God. His words set me free. All glory to him!
___
When you prayed for us to feel joy, I wanted revenge on someone who hurt me. God told me to wait 3 years ago, so I waited. After 3 years I had the chance to take revenge but God told me that I really didn’t want that. So, I prayed today and asked God to help me forgive and God listened to my prayer when I gave up my right to take revenge. I felt such joy when I surrendered my right! Now I think about who I need to ask forgiveness because I think restoration can happen. I am so thankful! It is my joy!
___
I want to thank you for teaching truth. Even as pastors, we missed this.
___
Our enemy is at work in all the world. I felt like God forgot about me and it was hard to be satisfied in life. I wondered if I could really make it in life. I was always questioning myself and wanted to give up. There was a moment I wanted to jump from my apartment roof, but God was there. I give all the glory to him.
___
I thought my hardships were God's plan, but I found out that it was not true. I've been living in the midst of brokenness, thinking there was no problem, but I also found that was false. I realized that the enemy had lied to me, and I realized how many lies I had believed. If I don't truly believe in the truths that God tells me through love and patience, I get in the way of the Lord leading me to recovery.
I felt the Holy Spirit working among us. I got to know His love again. I found out that God works in an unexpected way, and He led us throughout our whole time.
I’ve been a Christian a long time but I realized today that I didn’t believe God was alive. I think today is the first time I realized God is alive.